Nocturnal ambiance outside our flat.
When at last my head crashes into the hard bricks, I notice that my body had to be pressed against it for a while now.
In that moment I realised without any doubt: There is no going on from here.
I take a step back and see myself face to face with it: So this is it, the Stone Wall of Reality.
There is always a way.
This way doesn’t necessarily have to be straight, but it always has the direction onwards.
That way I went on my way, leaving Wellington for the South Island, looking for a job to save up money for the further travels. I try on a high level of difficult, as I went around Christchurch and in Queenstown you can hardly make money, really. Here in Dunedin I had sheer luck with the job at the airport and even that didn’t last forever.
Now it has been some weeks of silence around the employers as it is the school holidays in New Zealand. In only two and a half weeks I will depart from here and until the 10th of May I will travel exclusively.
My calculations didn’t include this much literal unemployment and because of that the question of fundraising had to be answered in a different way. In fact, I am on this trip but once and I did the best I could.
Of course it would have been nicer to have made it all by myself. On the other hand, I am in New Zealand for over a year only once in my life.
Back in Germany I will have plenty of time to make good for the funds retroactively. The here and now is the only thing that counts! And that shall be free of any worries!
So I peel my body off the masonry and take a look around. My idea to make it through my travels independently stays behind that wall. So I better make friends with one of the other ways. It’s about time, as I don’t want to spend the last two weeks down here grimly looking for work.
Very shortly I will hold my beloved parents tight and we will have the greatest road trip of all time! The same will happen again with my best friend and after that I will travel 4 countries in one month…
Sometimes it goes different than you planned; but the details are beneath the big picture, which is far more important.
Life is good, just go for it!
Appendix:
For some, this post might sound all sad and resigning, but it is actually a triumphant read. It is a great moment to be true to yourself about changing something. Whether it is some change of mind or an active, visible step in the right direction.
In the end you will always be happier… 🙂
